Hi peeps, I'm back to update because someone asked me to do so ~
wondering where have I been to ...
well .. I'm just busy coping with my academic work given the tight schedule before the Term-Test commences.

First of all, Happy Birthday Eunice!
May all your wishes come true and hope happiness will always by your side ~
Smile always~ :)

Anyway, my last CDS, TransNational Studies has just ended.
The residential stay in Temasek Green was fruitful and fun .. especially with the accompany of all my wonderful friends!
Rushing through group project everyday with the limited time given ...
Having bonding sessions till late night ...
Eating cup noodles together ...
Went out to have supper at late night ...
and many many many more ... ...
3 weeks under one roof .. and it's over. Time flies~
Let's hope we won't lose contact with each other and see you guys around in school yea.
Not forgetting that there is a reflective journal to be completed by 24th December 2009.

Yesterday went to catch the movie, "2012".
It was worth watching though.
Just wondering will the Doomsday actually arrive? or is it just a mere prediction?
21.12.2012 ... I'm counting down ...
If let's assume that this piece of news is to be real, what will you do just before the Doomsday?

Lastly, I'm praying hard for both of my grandparents.
as my grandfather just returned home after being hospitalized for a few days and also my grandmother is not feeling well too ...
Don't want to elaborate further ...
STAY STRONG alright! Blessings from God.



Thanks for everything~ :)
I will treasure you.

Remember these temperature stickers which we took during the breakout of H1N1 period? Well, these are my collection since the very 1st day. HAHA~ but TP is going to launched a new iCool Temperature Badge next week. Do keep a lookout for it!

There goes the first week of school since the commencement of the new semester.
I'm excited as I would be able to see my friends once again but I'm not really looking forward getting to adapt to the school environment actually.
Lessons were fine. Having to know all the modules taken this semester and also all my lecturers/tutors. Not forgetting my classmates, though some of them aren't longer with us due to some reasons.
And yes, I feel much better or rather secured for this semester with all my lecturers/tutors and classmates.
Though I slept during lectures/tutorials, I regretted. But I just couldn't help falling asleep as I'm really sleepy due to the deprivation of rest recently. Due to that, I missed quite a number of important points for the various modules. *sigh~ Hopefully, I can be more awake the next week, and probably I would get ample of rest. As for this week, I excused myself as it's the first week. HAHA~
Thanks to Mr Sim, my Sociology tutor for last semester, for the encouraging email and greetings on one of the days. It's simply heartwarming!
For the CDS I would be taking for this semester which is Transnational Studies, I'm a little afraid as I may not be scoring well due to the assessment. Let's pray hard~

Hope this semester will go on smoothly.

Last Thursday and Friday, CSC organized a roadshow- Project Green Cycle. Came back to school early in the morning for setting up purposes and getting ready before running it. The whole event was successful. We managed to collect 70++ phones these two days and also sold quite a number of the Envirosax bags. Hope it can continue for the next two days which is on next Monday and Tuesday. For those who had used/old/spoiled phones and used/old clothes and wish to donate to us, feel free to bring down to our event on next Monday and Tuesday from 10am to 4pm alright. Thanks Hwee Hoon for the bright smile and also the few comments she gave. Sometimes a little encouragement would spur me on~

E.M.S. - Encouragement, Motivation & Support. That's what I need.

Well, for my family side, my mum seems to be stressed out with the CPF thingy which involves money. I seldom seen her in this state and this certainly caught my attention. Hopefully everything would be fine and she don't need to fork out any money after rectifying the problem.

Hope the problem will be solved and everything will be fine.

Life is just like a show whereby we, the human beings often being played either the 'good' guy or 'bad' guy in part and parcel of our life. It's true. I often pictured my life as a WWE wrestler's life. For them, they would be either playing as 'FACE'- a good guy or 'HEEL'- a bad guy. Sometimes we are introduced to the darkest moments of our life and we inevitably changed towards the 'HEEL' side. But I would feel much much much better when I'm being played as 'FACE'. It's hard to say though, but we do have our part to play in our life.

C'est La Vie - That's the way of life.

As a friend, I would feel disappointed when I have high expectations of you. As said, the higher expectation you have for something, the tendency of being disappointed would be higher too. Being neglected is actually the saddest thing among friends. Sometimes I tried to close one eye, but I know I'm just trying to avoid this case and no matter what, it just won't change. Do I have to be so hard on myself? It's contradicting though, as sometimes I do neglect some of my friends and I sincerely apologized for that.

I don't want to be neglected.

I just realized all my previous posts sounds sad ... ):
Forget about all of those ...

Anyway, school gonna reopens very soon .. just a weekend away.
I don't have any feelings though, but just that I'm kinda not used to attending lectures and tutorials etc ...
Hope everything goes smoothly when the new term commence.
JIAYOU to everyone! :)

Probably I should have give up.
Probably I should not have bother too much.
Probably I should not have voice out.
Probably I don't belong to that.

Because it's all pointless to do so...
I'm just an nuisance. HAHA!


waiting for the arrival of Doomsday. ):

Once upon a time, there lived a little boy named Ted. His family isn't that closely bond and he had always wanted to change about this fact. Each time when he saw some other children were so closely held to their families and were saturated with happiness, he would felt envious and thought why he could not possess what they had actually have. He didn't have any chance to attend any of the enrichment class. In short, he didn't get to expose to the outside world as if he was leading a life of desolation and his life looked bleak. Due to that, he was not aware of many things happening outside. He got to know about some of the things only when he heard his friend(s) mentioned about them. He didn't really communicate with his family. For years, he had always keep things to himself or sometimes he would share with his peers. He felt rather weird as to why he just couldn't share with his parents instead. It's hard to change that fact right now ... but he has to accept it. One year, 365 days, he wondered how much time he could spend with his parents. Other children would be having family day, going to somewhere to enjoy. Whereas for him, he had not been to cinemas for nearly a decade. Sounds exaggerating, but it's true. His parents were both busy working. almost throughout the day itself. He understood their situation and hoped for a change one fine day.

To be continued ...

I've been bulging on food recently, why is it so? ):
so don't be surprised if you realized that I'm getting fatter. :D

finally the project report is done and will be presenting to D tomorrow.
I'm afraid that he will be disappointed ... *sigh~
just keyed in the seal points too. get things done on time is important. :)

hope things will be fine. *praying ... :)


When the world says, "Give Up", Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."

Today is the 3rd October '09. Happy Mid-Autumn Festival to all!
Well, this year's Mid-Autumn Festival doesn't seem to be as it should be ...
Things I could think of are- lanterns, candles, mooncakes, tea, Hou Yi, Chang e and not forgetting the ... the full moon!

Well. So many things to say ... but I just couldn't put them in words ...
I didn't mean to hide anything, it's just that I don't know how to relay to you'all.
That's why I choose to carry all these agony by myself.
Yes, blame it on me ... ):
I'm trying very hard to put on a happy face but I couldn't as I know that the fact will always stay as it is ...
"Why does this happen on me?"
"Why I just can't be like others?"
"Why do I come to this world in the first place?"
"Why why why ... ..."

Bring everyone together in my family ...
allow them to feel the bond in which we should possess in the first place ...
helping each other in times of need ...
but but but ... *sigh~

Sometimes friends can be in place of family too.
study together, play together, enjoy each others' accompany ...
but but but again ... *sigh~

If you were to ask me this question, "What in life do you afraid the most?"
Hmm .. my answer will be "Regrets."
Yes, that's right.

也许我真的累了。。。



another question ... I wonder who I can turn to ... ...
sobz ~

For the past days, I'd been busy with camp stuffs.
and it ended yesterday.
A lot of things happened during the camp. I do realized a lot of things too.
I'm still feeling a bit of lethargic so my mind is still in a blank somehow.

24th September 2009 (Thursday)
Happy 19th Birthday Cheng Hao !
sorry for not able to attend your BBQ/chalet as I'd some event to attend to.
a lot of things to say ... but for now,
just one word, 'SORRY!' ):

26th September 2009 (Saturday)
the first thing I thought of when I woke up this morning was my Grandma's birthday.
Happy Birthday Grandma !
went over to my grandparents' house this evening.
I joined them for dinner as my grandpa cooked something nice.
chatted with both of them.
each time I saw my Grandma, I will ... ...
Grandpa told me things about Grandma, and I just went speechless.
Hope you will recover soon. Stay strong k ~
before I left, I shook her hands and wished her a Happy Birthday.
and she smiled to me ~ :)
How am I going to help you I wonder? someone tell me pls ... ...
*sigh~


It's about giving.
sometimes a little thing you did means a lot to others.

right now, I don't know what should I do ...
I've been feeling rather down these few days ...
what's going on ~

hiding behind all the sorrows, laughing like no one business ...
is this what I feel ...
I don't know what I'm doing ...
sometimes I wish I could ... ...
*sigh~

probably that's the reason why I'm afraid ...
it's not tangible, you cannot see it. but can you feel it ? ):
everything seems to keep pushing me backwards ...
I wonder when's my breaking point ...

nowadays, I realized that I don't like to be alone.
alone walking down the streets, on the bus etc ~
oh .. haix ~

oops ! it relapse again ... argh ~ ):



a full-stop ? ):